LAUGHTER IS A MEDICINE INDEED BUT A BITTER ONE..

LAUGHTER IS A MEDICINE INDEED BUT A BITTER ONE..

My restless eyes caught a poster on hospital wall, it read “children make love stronger , home happier, nights longer and future worth living for”. I did not relate to it until I experienced that one day of fatherhood. Now that our daughter has gone from our lives after that brief single day stay, we are feeling her in every walk of life. Things those we bought for her, dreams those we saw for her, even if we see towards each other, eyes search for something which has gone amiss. There is emptiness in everything we see. Its so strange how we pick up every detail when our eyes are searching something, everything lying here and there means something or the other. The sweater my mother was knitting for the little one never found a place in my thoughts until now, and now I think of touching it every time I see it but I don’t want to cry in front of my wife. I just wipe my eyes dry and look in the other direction, but perhaps I want to see it every day and that is why I could not remove it so far.Time is flowing leaving everything behind but even time cannot run over human memory so easily, some impressions remain despite being run over by time. Family and friends are trying hard to distract our minds from our grief but memories refuse to go away. I remember being told once “memories behave in a weird way, they leave you alone when you are in a crowd and they crowd you when you are alone”. How hard we try to knead the things to normalcy they keep coming back to us in whatever we do whatever we see. A child’s smile is god’s gift to mankind but even that too reminds us of the tiny smile we lost, the pain is quite evident and is affecting people around us too. Our dear ones trying their bid in every possible way, trying to make us laugh, trying to help us heal. We laugh with them but it doesn’t last too long and it ends abruptly leaving a bitterness in thoughts making us realize we actually have lost our reason to laugh. Laughter never tasted this bitter.